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I tell myself i like everything and that im easy going, but in reality im not. i like everything if its my way, and im easy going when im happy.. which often times im not. i dont care what people think of me, but i do think i struggle with how i think about myself-- maybe thats why im so quick to judge everybody around me. i tell myself i do things in other people's best interest, but most of the time theres always a little bit of myself taken into consideration, which is why over time ive been managing to push the people closest to me away one by one.. so far im down two of my best friends. i dont think ive done much to change, and i always tell myself id love to- but its hard to see who you really are until you're shown your worst. maybe im writing this out of emotion, but i really dont think i saw just how much i was tearing down and picking apart almost every relationship ive had and have still until now. even the friends i still have, i could be closer with if i could just let more things be. i realized if you spend so much time picking everyone else apart you never really have that much time to see what youre doing wrong yourself. i wish i had taken the time to think about this before, but you live and learn- right? ive started to realize that maybe im accusing everyone else around me of being wrong simply because i dont wanna be wrong myself- something im sure ive heard a million times, just never bothered to listen to. which is something i wish i had listened to a million times ago, because you dont realize how happy you were and could be until you lose that source of happiness that you were selfishly overlooking all along. its all part of growing up though right? i can see that being in love is about putting other people first and loving them the way you would love yourself, but you cant really do that if youre too busy trying to only make yourself happy. i guess if i had thought of that before id be in a much different place right now, but some things are too broken to be fixed, and sometimes theyre not..however i feel lucky to have that lesson on my hand at the same time because i will take that lesson with me into any new relationships i build because i dont think i can live with knowing that i single handedly ruined something else that could have been something amazing. i wish i could be one of those happy people that plan to take memories with them,but i dont. they hurt. theyre a reminder of how things were and maybe in time i'll grow to love them - but for now i think id be better off not remembering. i hope that someday i'll be in that place where im happy, especially with myself- so that im able to be happy with the people i love and who love me back.. i think thats most important and above most other things that is what i wish for the most. life isnt about just being beautiful, its about feeling beautiful because of the people who really honestly love you.
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| 2005, see ya! |
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i confess that in 2005 i...
( ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
( ) fell in love with a idiot
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
( ) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
(x) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really disliked
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
(x) cut class
(x) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
( )discovered a new talent
( )gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x)proved yourself an idiot
( ) embaressed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
(x) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office
OTHER
( )painted a picture
(x)wrote a poem
(x)ran a mile
(x)listened to music you couldn't stand
(x)double-dipped
( )skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
(x) threw a surprise party!
(x) laughed until you cried
(x) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) visited a different state
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
( ) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair..
( ) came close to losing your life
(x) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alcohol underage
(x) did (a) drug(s)
(x) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
(x)saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x) saw a good band/artist live
(x)saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
(x) Enjoyed this year all over
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What is your name?: Laura Goodale
Are you named after anyone?: My Dad's Cousin.
What's your screename?: fadingxmemoriiez
Would you name a child of yours after you?: Absolutely not.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Benjamin
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Kiely, or Hannah
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Um, no.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: Yeah probably.
Basics
Your gender: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight
Single?: Yep..
If not, do you want to be?:
Birthdate: June 3, 1989
Your age: 16
Age you act: 12
Age you wish you were: 18
Your height: 5'7
Eye color: Bluish/gray
Happy with it?: Yeah it's fine.
Hair color: Brown/blonde/mess
Happy with it?: Sure
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty
Your living arrangement: House.. with mom dad sister and brother
Your family: like i said before..
Have any pets?: darby <3 my puppy
Whats your job?: Cvs, it sucks.
Piercings?: ears (5)
Tattoos?: not yet..
Obsessions?: chad michael murray
Addictions?: cigs.
Do you speak another language?: spanish, kinda.
Have a favorite quote?: no
Do you have a webpage?: www.myspace.com/fadingxmemoriiez
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: Nope
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Not really, I hate alot of people.
Do you have any secrets?: Yes, def.
Do you hate yourself?: Hate, no. Like, no.
Do you like your handwriting?: Sometimes
Do you have any bad habits?: Yeah, biting my nails
What is the compliment you get from most people?: "Hahah omg you're hilarious!"
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "You're a Mess!"
What's your biggest fear?: Losing someone real close to me.
Can you sing?: Barely
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Um, no, that's lame.
Are you a loner?: Um no..
What are your #1 priorities in life?: My friends, my family, sports, education.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Definetly not.
Are you a daredevil?: Nope
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I don't like alot of things about myself.. oh well.
Are you passive or agressive?: Pretty much aggressive.
Do you have a journal?: Livejournal.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength: I'm a great advice giver/listener. Weakness: Boys.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I wouldn't be a fat lard.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Absolutely
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: I don't know.
Do you think life has been good so far?: Eh, it's alright.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Don't take things for granted. Life is too short.
What do you like the most about your body?: Um, my eyes, or hair?
And least?: Everything else.
Do you think you are good looking?: Not at all.
Are you confident?: In some ways.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: I don't know
Are you perceived wrongly?: Yeah..
Do You...
Smoke?: Yeah, trying to quit.
Do drugs?: Not anymore.
Read the newspaper?: On occasion
Pray?: Yes
Go to church?: Yes
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Sure
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yeah my, "my very very very very very.. best friend" snake :)
Take walks in the rain?: Um no?
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Sometimes.
Drive?: Yep
Like to drive fast?: Yes.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: Eh, sometimes.
Hurt yourself?: Yeah
Been out of the country?: Honduras, Canada.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Um, nope?
Been in love?: Nope
Done drugs?: Yeah
Gone skinny dipping?: Yeah
Had a medical emergency?: Yeah, concussion last years basketball season.
Had surgery?: Nope
Ran away from home?: Yeah
Played strip poker?: Nope
Gotten beaten up?: Kinda, by 5 big black girls.
Beaten someone up?: Yep, same situation as above^.
Been picked on?: Umm, yeah. In Elementary school.
Been on stage?: Yes. And I LOVE IT!
Slept outdoors?: Yep.
Thought about suicide?: Yeah..
Pulled an all nighter?: Yeah, obviously.
If yes, what is your record?: Um, staying up all night?
Gone one day without food?: Yeah, when I was sick.
Talked on the phone all night?: Until like 3am or so?
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: All the time. With Jimmy, Derek, Dan, etc.
Slept all day?: Yeahhh.
Killed someone?: Um, no.
Made out with a stranger?: Yeah
Had sex with a stranger?: Nope
Thought you're going crazy?: All the time.
Kissed the same sex?: Yeah
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Madeout..
Been betrayed?: Absolutely yes.
Had a dream that came true?: Not really.
Broken the law?: Um yeahhhh.
Met a famous person?: Taking Back Sunday!!
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Noooo!
On purpose?: NO!
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Yeah, who hasn't?
Stolen anything?: Haha, yeah.
Been on radio/tv?: Yep radio, and tv in Honduras! haha
Been in a mosh-pit?: Many times.
Had a nervous breakdown?: Yep.
Bungee jumped?: Nope.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Yeah
Miracles?: Not yet.
Astrology?: Yeah
Magic?: Not really
God?: Yes
Satan?: Yes
Santa?: No
Ghosts?: Yes
Luck?: Yes
Love at first sight?: Not yet
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: Yes
Witches?: No
Easter bunny?: No
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: No
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: No
Do you wish on stars?: Yeah
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Um, pretty much, yeah.
Do you think God has a gender?: Male, yeah.
Do you believe in organized religion?: Yep
Where do you think we go when we die?: I think we just die.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Haha oh yes!
Who is your best friend?: Lindsey Jimmy and Derek
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Lindsey/Derek
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: "Never give up, if your passionate about what you want."
Your favourite inside joke?: I have no idea.
Thing you're picked on most about?: Being fat probably
Who's your longest known friend?: Mike Archard/Peter McCoy
Newest?: Dan or Chelsea
Shyest?: Sami ?
Funniest?: Torri
Sweetest?: Jimmy or Meghan
Closest?: Lindsey/Derek
Weirdest?: Torri, haha, In a good way.
Smartest?: Hannah
Ditziest?: Jimmy haha
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Brockton people.. Amanda Julia Paige Holly Jessica Emily, etc.
Last person you talked to online?: Jimmy
Who do you talk to most online?: Jimmy/Lindsey
Who are you on the phone with most?: Derek
Who do you trust most?: Right now, Jimmy.
Who listens to your problems?: Lindsey, Derek, Jimmy
Who do you fight most with?: Derek
Who's the nicest?: Sami
Who's the most outgoing?: Derek
Who's the best singer?: Julia
Who's on your shit-list?: Haha, people.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Yeah
Who's your second family?: Lindsey's family
Do you always feel understood?: Not at all
Who's the loudest friend?: Jimmy or Derek
Do you trust others easily?: Not at all
Who's house were you last at?: Jimmy's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Right now, I don't know.
Do your friends know you?: I don't really know.
Friend that lives farthest away: Caleigh (Canada)
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: Never been in love.
What do you find romantic?: Someone who is caring, passionate, and loves me for who I am.
Turn-on?: Smelling amazing! Being sweet, and nice eyes.
Turn-off?: Bad teeth, bad breath, ugly clothes & assholes.
First kiss?: Justin (kindergarden) haha.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: Hmm, I don't really know?
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or just going: Probably knowing them.
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: I guess so, I don't really care though.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Probably not.
What is best about the opposite sex?: Sex, haha.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Most guys are assholes.
What's the last present someone gave you?: Hmm, I have no idea.
Are you in love?: Nope
Do you consider your significant other hot?: Don't have one.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: No one?
You wanted to kill?: Probably Derek, but not really.
That you laughed at?: Jimmy
That laughed at you?: Jimmy
That turned you on?: No one?
You went shopping with?: My Dad, Wrentham Outlets on Saturday.
That broke your heart?: I don't really know.
To disappoint you?: Derek
To ask you out?: Um, I don't know?
To make you cry?: Derek
To brighten up your day?: Jimmy
That you thought about?: someone..
You saw a movie with?:
You talked to on the phone?:
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:
You saw?:
You lost?:
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: Nope, staying home.
Will it be with your significant other?: No, don't have one.
Or some random person?: No one.
What are you wearing right now?: Jeans, two polos, tank top, bra, underwear.
Body part you're touching right now: None, typing.
What are you worried about right now?: Tuesday.. idk.
What book are you reading?: None.
What's on your mousepad?: A NE Patriots thing, and my mouse.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: bored, nervous, cold, confused, aggravated
Are you bored?: Absolutely.
Are you tired?: Yeah, kinda.
Are you talking to anyone online?: Yes, Jimmy.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: Nope.
Are you lonely or content?: Pretty lonely
Are you listening to music?: Nope, but 7th Heavens on in the background
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[24 Oct 2005|06:50pm] |
COME TO THE THEATRE WORKSHOP's (formally known as the Playwriting Project
PRESENTATION OF THURSDAY NIGHT LIVE!
The SSCPS Workshop will be putting on a night of original skits/comedy at the Charter School.
WHEN: Thursday November 10, 2005 (NO SCHOOL FRIDAY 10/11/05, VETERAN'S DAY)
TIME: 7:30-9:30 PM
WHERE: South Shore Charter Public School - Village Green
COST: $5 student $7 adult for pre-ordered tickets, $10 for all tickets at the door.
Come support us, and enjoy a fun-filled night of laughter!
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[29 Sep 2005|03:06pm] |
I am SOOOO sick.
Gah, this is sucky.
I hope I feel better by tomorrow.
My play is due.. and Lindsey is supposed to sleepover.
I guess I'm not contagious anymore. Which is good.
But gahhhhhh. DEATH.
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| "do you have a cvs card?" "no one of my wives' has it, sorry" |
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So work was interesting tonight.
Working 3-11 isn't as bad as I thought
Plus, it's Sunday, so that's a time and a half.
Excellent money, I must say.
annnnnnnnnnd, I saw Whitney, which made me even happier. :)
School started. It's alright I guess.
My classes are real hard but I mean, oh well.
But Kie is in every single one of my 5 classes.
Which makes everything most definetly quite excellent.
Project is absolutely amaaaazing.
I thought I would miss the whole Honduras thing.
But I really don't at all.
I love everyone in this project.
And hopefully, I'll get a part in the play.
That would make everything oh-so-wonderful.
I really miss my "ex-seniors"
aka, Lindsey Amanda and Heather.
College really does fuck things up.
No matter how many times you tell yourself it won't.
It does.
OH YEAHHH! .. I saw Devin last week <3
We madeout, and talked, and madeout some more.
I miss that girl so much. gahhhh
Derek slept over on Friday.
It was, hmmmm interesting. haha
Then Saturday we didn't wake up until 1:30.
Then we were gonna go cosmic bowling with Marina, Nora, and Hannah.
But it turned out that The Bowladrome was closed. Bummer.
But instead we all went to Outback and the Hanover Mall.
It was good to see Marina again because I miss her like whoa.
And I effing love Hannah and Nora <3 So it was good.
Oh yes, Derek too. But that's self-explanatory.
Yeah okay, longest entry ever, I think yes.
But I mentioned like evvvverrrryooooooone.
Which means I expect you bitches to comment on this. hehe
Okayyyyy. Bed time. I have work tomorrow.
LAME. whatever, Goodnight lovers.
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Summer's over, so over the past 2 months have you....
had a party? - nopee
gone to a party? - uh yeah, def.
spent the night with someone? - oh yes, for sure :)
laughed until your stomach hurt? - sooo many times
gone on a vacation? - eh kinda, washington dc and new york city
tanned? - if you want to call it that?..
went to a camp? - nope
swam? - many many many times.
went to the movies? - actually, no i really don't think i have?
gone shopping? - oh yeahhh. so many times
had a job? - ugh yeah, FUCK CVS.
gotten freakishly bored? - ummm alllll the time.
have you gotten sun burned yet? - yeah, from softball.
made a bonfire? - nope, don't think so?
been outside during a lightning storm? - hahaa yeah, kie and eamon!
been to another state? - yeah, D.C. MD, PA, NH, NY, ME
been to another country? - umm not over the summer nope.
changed something about your appearance? - cut my hair a little bit?, dyed it blonde again.
been to the the hospital with an injury? - ummm wisdom teeth came out?
commited a crime/broken the law? - hahaah yeah, on numerous occasions.
gone on a road trip? - NOOO. and i totally wanted to :( - next summer FOR SURE.
had a g/f or b/f? - no fuck commitment :)
dumped a g/f or b/f? - nope
kissed someone? - uh yeah.
if so, how many people? - like 5 or something idk.
had sexual intercourse with someone? - noooope!
if so, how many people?- see above
been to a concert?- yesss. kelly clarkson. hilary duff. 311/unwritten law/papa roach.
Been in trouble with the cops/parents? - umm actually not really, kinda with the parentals but idk.
had a memorable moment? - GYLC was wicked amazing. And touching Hilary Duff's ass. <3
had a horrible moment? - Let's see, getting my wisdom teeth out was a horrible 7 days of a moment.
made new friends? - Yepp, for sure. Caleigh, SarahS, SarahM, Dawson, Maggie, Joey, Allan,
Mareesa, Tommy, Dita, gawwwd all of them are so amazing.
missed a friend? - Everyone from above, and especially like Lindsey, Derek, Kie, Amanda, Anna, Tia.
And most importantly over anyone i miss Devin fucking Anastasia more than all of you! :(
Slept under the stars? - Ummm yep!
thought about school? - not until like now, thanks.
been to the beach? - Yep.
thought about a special someone? - Yeah of course.
hahaha this shit was so lame.
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[20 Aug 2005|09:37pm] |
Today is my best friends' birthday.
I'm real sad I didn't get to spend it with her :(
Happy Birthday Lindsey, I love you.
Anyways. This week is going to be real lame.
I have to work tomorrow 1-8. gheyyyyy.
I reallllly need to do some school shopping like ASAP because, well I just do.
My brother is home finally :) It's good to have him back.
Everything is pretty good I guess.
I'm bored.
Make plans with me for this weeeek! :)
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Yeah so nothing real good has been going on lately.
All the floors in my house are getting done so I'm at my grandparents' until Friday.
Friday-Sunday= Gert+Penelope wicked bonding time. aka, me and kie are hanging out.
I have a softball tournament and shes just so excellent that shes coming to watch me :)
Monday is going to be hell though, I'm getting my wisdom teeth out.
Not just two, or three, yeah all four.
It's really gonna suck, and I live so far that I have no one to come and luff me. :(
So, if you are interested, let me know, and I will totally love you forever.
School starts soon and I don't really know what to think about that.
I miss alot of people that I haven't seen allll summmmer.
But, the whole homework/waking up early/dealing with teachers thing, is pretty lame.
Oh well, what can you do? At least this summer was half way decent.
Oh, ps. I should be going to the Backstreet Boys concert on sunday but, yeah. I'm not.
Wicked bummer, oh well, whatever man.
Ummm. I guess that's all I really have to say now?
Who knows.
Okay, I'm so rambling now.
Ohhhhh yeahhhh, pppppppps.
Next week (after monday-tuesdayish), I'm so free.
So if you luff me, you'll hangout with me.
Let me know cuties.
okay bye.
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I'm moving out of my house for a week or so, so if you need me, call my cell phone. Not my house phone. Thanks cuties.
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[05 Aug 2005|08:59pm] |
yayy <3 i bought this tonight, how cute!!!!
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I think the worst possible thing that could have ever happened to me, just did.
I'm such a mess, and I just don't know how to handle all of this.
It hurts so much, physically and emotionally.
I got beat up, pretty bad.
These black girls tried to steal my purse.
There were 5 of them.
I tried to grab my purse back and one of them punched me in the face.
I have a huge fatlip, and my jaw is swollen.
I punched the girl back and she got a bloody nose.
Probably the scariest thing that's ever happened to me.
Yeah.
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Haven't updated in a really long time.
Things have been, eh, okay, lately.
I guess I can't complain too much.
I just got back from Washington D.C and NYC for 12 days.
I met a lot of really amazing people.
Caleigh, Sarahsquared, Maggie, Dawson, JoeJoe, Marisa, Dita <3 gawddd i love you guys.
Yesterday was a blast!! I went down to Hull and saw Derek and Nora <33 I wicked missed them.
Then I went to my biffffles Kiely's house! It was awesome. We just talked and cuddled and watched movies and then we went for a walk down the beach.
Then I saw Torri<3 and that was a good time. We visited Heather and Amanda at Tedeschis. I miss them so much!
Then Lucas picked me and Kiely up with Micah and Alex and we went to the fireworks and I saw Katie and Hannah!! and Cole and Paul!
After the fireworks with my lovely wife kiepie<3 me kie lucas and gilly(the birthday boy!) went to ricky's for ice cream. It was good and it was free! mmm :)
Then I got dropped off at Dereks house, and it was so good to finally spend time with him again. We cuddled and watched tv and just fell asleep.
Then I woke up and drove home!!
It was a pretty good weekend so far.
I have like 3 cookouts today, cough lame cough.
I miss Lindseyyy <3
I haven't seen her in literally a month.
Gawd, I'm having separation anxiety.
Anyways, If any of you hoes wanna hang out soon, you besta hit up my cellllll. ahaha. wow.
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[30 May 2005|08:47pm] |
Yesterday was my sweet 16 party. It was okay. I enjoyed spending it with some amazing people. I had a super awesome fantastic moonwalk. Look!:
So yeah, we all bounced our cute little tooshies off until the stupid thunderstorm started. That was retarded but it's okay, I have the best friends ever. I had such a good time. Check it outtt.
Tia and Anna = amazing. favorite people ever.
Uhm, my best friend is definetly cuter than you. Yes, way cuter.
Yeah, sometimes my cousin is adorable I guess.
Emily is adorable. She came and I was so excited to see her. awww
Well yeah, this is a pretty big week coming up. Friday is my birthday! wooop. And then Saturday is graduation. Ugh. Most depressing thing ever? Yeah I think so. Eh. I guess thats it. kthxbyecutiezzz
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[23 May 2005|09:38pm] |
These kids are absolutely my entire life. Nothing compares. I love you all so much.
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[21 May 2005|11:09am] |
PROM TONIGHT!!!
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Well I just got back from NYC on Friday. It was the most amazing
experience of my life. I met some new people, reaquainted with old
friends, and in the end had to say goodbye to some of the best people
I've ever met in my entire life. Everyday was different from the
previous. We helped at soup kitchens, food pantrys, clothing banks, and
shelters. I heard so many inspirational stories from those who were
once homeless and came through and changed their life around. One man
was actually homeless for 17 years and turned his life around, made a
change, and now teaches younger kids, inspiring them to do the right
thing.
The hardest part about this experience was definetly the goodbye. I had to say goodbye to Meg,
which was the hardest thing in the world for me. She is graduating this
year, so she can't go on any other trips. She is one of the most
amazing people in my life. She inspires me in so many ways and I
respect her more than anyone else in this world. I'm going to miss her
so much. It also hurt to see Katrina leave
because she is such an asset to these trips. Her inspiring words, and
intelligent ways, helped us along our journey through helping people
less fortunate. I met an amazing girl too, named Chantal.
She is craazy. Just like me. We hit it off right away. We had so much
fun together this week, making hard work into fun times. I'm going to
miss them so much.
So after I arrived home, stopped crying after about 7 hours. I just
layed in my bed and thought about how I made such a difference. I'm
going to try and volunteer at places like this at least twice a month.
It's the least I can do. I have so much, and these people have barely
anything.
Being home, is really tough. I miss the big city. New York is amazing.
But, when I got home, everything seemed so different. I did miss alot
of people, but it seemed as if everything changed. I missed Lindsey like
crazy. She is staying with me in 2 weeks and I'm so excited about that.
I hope that we can really bond even more than we are now, seeing as my
time with her is limited. I don't know what I'm going to do when she
graduates. I'm going to miss her more than anyone. But I know that life
is full of changes, and this is just another one. I fucking love that
girl and I wish her all the best.
Oh yes, a special Happy Birthday shoutout to Amanda Michelle Selig.
<3 The big 18! I love you baby. I misssss you like craaazy too. I
hope you get everything you want, because you deserve that and more :)
To everyone else, Derek Kiely Marina Becca Meghan Sammi Nora Heather, i'm sorry if i forgot you. I missss you all like craaazy. Can't wait to see you most of you tomorrow :)
NYC Mission Possible '05- I will
never forget the amazing times we shared. You are all such amazing
people. I'm so glad I got to experience this with you. <3 I love you
so much.
"We aren't just a community, we're pure FAMILY."
Alright I think I'm done. Yikes, that was a long entry.
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